No one I have ever talked to understands me, They dont know what is going on in my head, they dont know my struggles and how bad everything is. I cant talk to them, I have so much to say but my stupid head stops me, so it builds up and im left to cope with my messed up head times worse.
Im not important, everything I say is ignored/talked over or I get yelled at to shut up. I get mocked for everything that comes out of my mouth. Nothing I say matters. No one gives a shit. I have no friends, everyone hates me. My family hates me, what did I do wrong?. My whole family is going to uni, I havn't. Im over taking drugs everyday. Im over building relationships with people and then losing them. I am too scared to work when physically I will be capable soon. My body and food have taken over my life. All I want is everything to be over.
I am the black sheep. The family loner. A failure. The one who's a waste of space. Where nothing matters. I was born to rescue my mum from the relationship, I have done that and now its time to go.
Everything happens for a reason. I will be better off dead.
I do understand you.... Trust me, its hard I hope your still alive. I just found this searching on google
ReplyDelete" ways to kill yourself while not failing "
And i saw this. I hope your alive im sorry