I feel like i'm nothing.
Really depressed.
Like there's no brain in my head, no heart pumping.
I feel weird.
I'm really scared and confused.
I have no one, no friends.
Hallucinated again last night and ended up crying to mum again. But I hardly remember.
I have no med's.
I went out with Rose to the zoo today, was a good break, pity we couldn't stay longer.
I want to keep crying, I can't stop crying. Its hard to keep holding them in.
I ate today, some grapes, an apple and sadly a doughnut and choc bar without vomiting :( I'm just too low energy. Confused, depressed.
I don't trust mum anymore, she shut herself in her room talking to dad also. I don't trust her anymore, I can't tell her anything anymore, I will not tell her anything anymore.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me.
I just want to be me please!
I want to see Annie,
I need to see Annie!
:( >:( :'( >:'( :/ :'/
What is happening to me? Why cant it just go away? Is it me being mental? Is it my health going down in a different way? How do I change it? I hate this! How can I stop it? Why is it happening? What is happening? I'm trying really hard! I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! :'(
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